Emptiness

Came back from work today to an empty room. Hai.. I really hate that feeling. Miss last week when mummy was here. Then she would be there waiting for me. Then after i'm home, we would always go for dinner together. Now i got to warm up my own dinner. Just the look of it and i dont feel like eating. Yay! I am eating damn little when i am here la. I think i can lose weight :) Today whole day, i only ate a banana. Its not that i dont want to eat. I am just not used to eating alone. Everyday, all my meals are filled with company. Lunch will always be in school with friends or family on weekends. Dinner would be with family most of the time. Now i have to eat alone, i just dont feel like eating. HAHA! Maybe its a good time for me to lose weight.
Anw, Thanks guys for all the encouragement message, email that you all keep sending me. Especially, Lu, Bella, Debbie, Dianna, Mummy, Leya and all the rest. I promise you all i will be strong and persevere through this 10 more weeks. I would go home, being a stronger person then i was before. I promise you all i wont be sad cos my mom told me that when she see me being sad, she'll feel sad too. So i wont be sad cos i dont want the people whom love and care for me to feel sad because of me:)Also, i really dont see the reason to be sad. Cos if not for this trip, i'll never learn so much more things. Like who and what really matters most to me in my life. I am thankful that it is only 3 months not 3 years. I really love and miss you guys. I'm counting down to the day when my mom will fly here to accompany me again :)