Post YOG

Wanted to post this since YOG ended on saturday.But then i fell sick and didn't really feel like using the comp till today. Anw, YOG was the BEST journey of my life. It is definitely one of the most memorable period of my life. To be honest, when training first started, me myself didn't know whether i could even pull through the whole journey. Trainings were so much more tough and strict as compared to NDP. They told us the dangers of playing with fire. I was very afraid of the fire. The heat was overwhelming. Not to mention that we have to twirl the props and manipulate it in many directions. 6 months have passed. And now, can proudly say that I LOVE FIRE!!!

March:

The first time we headed down to training. I remember that we were assigned to staves. The real actual double staves. They told us the both end of the stick would be on fire. I was damn afraid. I told myself that how am i going to do it when i am even scared of lighting a matchstick. We were taught the basics. Figure of 8, front and back. It was difficult co-ordinating both hands. I remember the first time one of the trainer lighted the actual staves for me to hold. I was totally freaked out. I just held it there. Not to mention spinning. Just the heat from the stave freaked me out. We got whacked everywhere that you can think of. Over weeks, we got better at it.

April:

We were transferred to rope darts. I hated the rope darts. I had no idea how on earth am i supposed to control them. I can't even do a basic shoot out without the rope darts hitting myself. It was also during this period that i started to have doubts about joining YOG. why on earth did i even join it. I really didn't like going for every training. But then the only reason why i went was that i told myself that i have to complete what i started.

May:

We were transferred back to staves :D Happiness for me!! But then instead of the double edged staves, we were given single sided staves. Well, its so much better then darts anw :) Thereafter, things just got better. The staves group started to bond and we really enjoyed every training. The people from staves, really went through alot together. From changes to props, to changes to choreo to even being threatened that if we do not perform well, the whole stave team will be taken away. But the trainers were just awesome. They never gave up on us and they spured us on.

June:

Quite alot of disruption because of holiday and all. The staves ppl were really begin to bond even more. Trainings were getting more and more intense. Twice a week. The trainings were taking the toll on us. But we were really happy every training. Costumes measurements were taken, dry runs were carried out, the view of our whole performances was starting to take shape :) WE finally lighted up our actual props. The fear was slowly taken over by excitement and slowly, the love for fire was in everyone's heart.

July:

CR, music runs and many rehersals were held twice a week at the floating platform. The staves were really bonded and we began sharing alot of crap stories during waiting time. We were bombarded with loads of photos at the F1 pit everyweek. Every training, no matter how tiring, was the BEST time of the week. The sense of satisfaction when you light up your props and put on the best show you can, is beyond description. WE finally put on our stinky costume. But all that didnt matter when you have all the friends beside you and that you know your moment of glory was awaiting you on stage.

August:

It finally came!! For the month of august leading up to YOG, everyday was filled with YOG meetups. Fire retarding of costume, practice, performance, CR and finally the actual day. The feeling was just beyond description. This journey will be one that i will NEVER forget. (To be continued next post.)

1 day to YOG!!

Damn! I know i am supposed to blog about the taiwan trip from ages ago. But i dont have the time. Been VERY busy with alot of stuff. Have been reaching home every night earliest at 11.30pm. Been feeling super tired. Guess the details of the taiwan trip plus the photos can only be up after YOG, when i have more time. Anw, talking about YOG, I really LOVE YOG!! Don't ever want august 14th to come. I still cant believe its just 1 day away!! One more training tomorrow and one final performance and its officially over.

Looking back, Every training is filled with laughter, joy, bonding and a sense of achievement after every performance. Of course its not all about fun. There is also running/jogging for warm ups, countless push-ups for training, long hours of waiting, getting stuck in the super hot costume, smelling like kerosene after training, runs after re-runs and the way we have to tie our hair that we wont have fringe or ponytail. Not to mention burns from the fire.

BUT all these cannot be compared to the FUN we have there. The spirit that we have among our groups when we motivate each other through the tough times when we have to run and do push ups. When you are lagging behind during the jogs, someone from another group that you might not even know, would run pass you and just tell you to 加油。When your arms are breaking from the push ups, there will always be someone to tell you that there is only few more to go. Long hours of waiting during training dont seem that long when you have all your friends surrounding you, laughing about the stupidest thing and talking about anything. Being stuck in the super warm costume also means loads of memories created when we go round laughing at each other for looking dumb in the costume and hat but then we somehow try to help each other to keep cool by unzipping and only zipping up when needed.

We used to complain of smelling like kerosene, looking dumb with our hair all tied up, and the tiring runs after re-runs. But then the minute our staves are on fire, the counting starts, the minute we light up, all these don't matter to us anymore. All we feel is the urge to perform to our best of ability. We feel the support from other fire dancers from Poi when they cheer as we run out. For that 18 counts of 8 on stage, we practicsed for nearly 8 months. But then when our final move is done and we run out, the sense of satisfaction is beyond description. The bond formed among all of us is also beyond comprehension.

I really dont want saturday to come. I dont want all these to end. Cos i know after our final counts of 8 next week, we might not even know when then we will be able to meet as a group. We don't even know when can we meet to practice fire dance. I'll definetly continue to learn fire after this. Do not know about the rest, but i am thankful to be able to be part of this YOG which created so many wonderful experiences and memories. The final show is going to be the BEST show ever :D

8 days..

8 days is not a long time. Yet for the past 8 days, i had SO much fun that i wished it would never end. Been really stress in Singapore with some stuff recently. But i was already more relaxed when i came back from Sydney. However, less then 2 weeks later, i was off to Taiwan again. But this time, i really had so much fun that during the 8 days, i could forget about everything that is happening back here in Singapore. I will write a more detailed update soon cos i just reached home from the airport. Need to sleep cos we have been surviving on only less then 5 hours of sleep daily. Yesterday, we broke record of 3 hours of sleep!

-Goodnight-

Random updates...

After such a long and tiring few months, finally i could leave everything behind and head for a holiday with my parents and brother :) I love the yearly family holidays! They are the only time, you can spend loads of time with them without the disruption of everyone's busy schedule. So this year, we decided to go Sydney! The weather there was awesome. About 12 degrees? But then, it wasn't too hot nor too cold. You could wear a t-shirt and walk around. Sometimes with a hoodie :) Tried sand toboganning, 4 wheel drive, seeing fairy penguins at some aquarium and many other interesting things. I feel that the life in Australia, is so much more relaxing then in Singapore. I shall upload some photos soon when my computer decides to corporate with me.

Other then that, been busy with the same old routine stuff. YOG training, Taekwondo black belt grading and many other things. I really can't wait for school to start! I really really miss school.

These few days, something at YOG training triggered my memory of something. Something that i have been to busy to thing about. Which i presume its good that i haven't been thinking about it. Lets just say, that there is this "photocopied" version in YOG, that reminds me of the "original" version. The feeling i had when i saw that "Photocopied" version in YOG, was that suddenly, i begin to really miss the "original" version. Ok, i am not making sense anymore. I should stop blabbering nonsense here :D

Sometimes i just feel, how nice isit if i could go back to when i was a kid. When i was a kid, i used to wish to grow up fast. But then, now if i could go back, i would treasure all the carefree times as a kid. There were no responsibilities, no worries, no stress, no expectations and esp, you could have to courage to express yourself so much more freely without the worry of people judging you. I'm feeling old!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

-Goodnight-

Truth hurts. But you all made it better.

I was rather/very sad when found out the truth about something some days ago. Well, i guess i know why they didn't want me to know the truth. But i was the one who told them to tell me. Now i do know why, people always say "Ignorance is bliss" But i am in a way glad, that i know everything now. I have decided that as of tuesday, I am deleting all of a certain memory, and this time its for good. And i must really say a big thanks to all my friends for their support and listening to me grumble. HAHA! Your support really means alot to me in times like this. I love you guys. And also, thanks to my "Taekwondo buddy", for holding the target and letting me vent my anger all on the target :D Thank you guys! You all know who you are. I'm so glad to have all of you in my life :)

Graduation 2010

Today, was the day i was waiting for 3 years ago.

Today, is the day where we all sat in rows according to our surnames, like how we did 3 years ago during the orientation week in school

Today, the feeling we had when we heard the school song, was very different from when we heard it 3 years ago.

Today is the day i graduated from TP, 20th May 2010.

This 3 years, many friends were made, and many memories were created. Well, this three years, there were many unforgettable memories and moments. That most probably, i wont even forget in many many years to come. But then, all these memories wont be possible, if i didn't have such a wonderful bunch of friends. Most memorable period of my 3 years, started in sem 2.1 and lasted all the way to graduation.

Through out these period, there were times when everything got really stressful. Projects, test, tutorials, exams, PBL, consultation and all the little things that seemed so important to us back then. But, I'm glad that throughout these period, there were friends around you, who made everything seemed easier, and we all made it through.

We did many things together. Be it in school or outside school. The bond of friendship we formed, won't just end today, when we remove our graduation robe. We will always be bonded by our common experience. All the silly little things we did, all the outings we went for, all the eating session and also all the project session, where the pressure would sometimes build up and conflict was inevitable.

These three years, i am thankful for everyone that came into my life. Although at times i did many stupid things (according to my friends), All these stupid things, are memories that i will treasure.

I don't know whether i will be able to meet you again. Unless by chance do we meet, or i can say that the chances are as good as zero. But no matter what, i just want to say, thank you for being part of my life in TP. I'll miss you.

-Goodnight-

F.U.N

Today was FUN! Brought spiky to the doctor first, followed by meeting Debbie and Bella to sing at Teo Heng for 3 hours. Then we headed to Paya Lebar to have yogurt before they came over to eat and sing till 9.45pm. HAHAHA! we were so full and tired, i think i can explode! Please let the fun never end!

I'll be starting another blog at the-yellow-rubber-duck.tumblr.com

But most probably that blog is gonna be more pictures and random stuff cos i still think i like blogging here :D

-goodnight-

quick update!

It has been a long time! Anw, Life has been damn good so far! Fun, and yet very rewarding. So, just enjoy everyday as it comes along :) Graduation on Thursday! That's super fast! Thats when three years of hard work, finally pays off.

Working in dad's company now. But other then the boring job i have, but then, i have been enjoying myself so far :) My friends are finally having their holidays, and we are finally going out to SING tomorrow! Most prob dinner at my house :) Secondly, i am super enjoying YOG training now! Cos we finally started the training with FIRE! The minute when your staff lights on fire, and you starts twirling it, the feeling that you have, is totally different from when you are twirling with the bamboo stick. Looking forward to every training (Other then the kerosene smell)

I can't wait for june too!! Most prob going for a short holiday with parents and brother, followed by my TAWIAN trip! But most probably have to change date :( Cos the tour is still not confirm yet :( Lets hope everything goes on fine :)

Month of may has been good so far! And i realise when i am happy, my posts has many :) So i shall end off here before i flood my posts with :)

-goodnight-

Work!!

Have been working the past few days.. Working in the bank isn't as fun as it seems to be. Stress! Well, only when you are working that you start to appreciate weekends. So friday, was at grandma house, with cousin. Drank just a little, then we all got damn high! And i think we were very noisy! But it was super fun! Saturday was YOG training, learnt alot of new stunts and stuff. I really can't wait to light the fire! Then Sunday, was the usual dim sum day.

Blah.. Life used to be free but a little boring when i didn't have a job. Now that i have a job, its stressful and monotonous. I'm so tired! Maybe i'll be quitting soon. HAHA! Shall see :) Parents were planning to go Australia in june. Don't know where they want to go leh! Hope the dates don't coincide with my Taiwan trip! I cant wait for the Taiwan trip!

On a random note, my back hurts like crap! I think i should go swim soon! I find that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Could be that when you are working, your life gets real monotonous and boring. You wont have the fun, the excitement that you used to have when you were in school. Year 2's and Year 3's and a new batch of year 1's are starting school tomorrow. How i wished i could go back to school tomorrow too :(

Come to think of it, i never realised that it has been THAT long. One year ago, exactly tomorrow, was the day that we started our year 3.1. That time, everything was so simple and nice. Now, i really don't know what to say about it already :( Everything seems to out of place, and so wierd. I really DO miss that time very badly. Especially all the fun, the project stress and many other things.

Run Run Run Run Run

These few days, didn't have much to do, so i ended up going to the gym and swimming quite a few times. I don't know why, but i am beginning to like going to the gym and swimming more now. I used to love swimming, but now, i love it even more. I spent few hours at the gym and pool today. I guess i just like the peace and quietness as i run/swim. Its like for that few hours, i am totally focus on running and swimming. I don't have to think about anything else. Well, i have not been stressed lately. In fact, i never felt this relax during school. Its just that this period, i have so many things to think through and decide. That sometimes, i just feel so tired. Oh well.. exercise is good, so why not. Lol! But then i will be starting work again on Thursday. Bleah! Ok la, maybe time will pass faster too :)

Anw, i am gonna sleep soon. Ran too much today :(

*Just want to say a BIG thank you to you* :)

-goodnight-

I'm going to be a Panda soon :(

Ok.. Just a short update before if zoom off again. HAHA! I have been sleeping everyday EARLIEST 3am! I'm gonna suffer from "jet lag" when i start adjusting back again. The reason why i am sleeping so late, is cos i am super addicted to the show 下一站，幸福!! Its VERY VERY nice!! The story line is damn good! And in the show, Ren Guang Xi is cute :) And the way he fight in court is damn cool! If only i watched the show earlier i would study doubly hard for my legal -.- ok.. no link.

Yup.. apart from this, these few days, it kept raining in the afternoon. And that is always when i want to go out!! Then i will have to either go out in the rain, or cancel the appointment cos i don't want to go out in the rain. Other then that, nothing much interesting going on. Yawn.. I miss school :( But i'll be starting work real soon. Then few holiday trips to look forward to! Yay!

Anw, last few days i was watching the show then i realise something, forgetting somebody or something, isn't always as easy as it seems. And that some people, no matter how hard you try, you can never forget them. Oh well... just a random thought. Maybe you'll feel the same after watching the show :D :D

I cant wait for thursday's YOG training!! YOG training is really something that i look forward to every week! I think the fire props are cool! Now in the process of learning it and its fun!! Just that i cant wait for the day, that we can collect our actual props and light fire to it! The sense of satisfaction will be the best :) Ok.. its 1.40am and I'm gonna sleep early tonight before i become a panda :)

-Goodnight-

I've fallen for you

Dont laugh at my post title!! Its just that I've been hearing this song these few days and i find that its very nice and its description is really nice. HAHA!

I've fallen for you

What is this I'm feelin'

I just can't explain

When you're near

I'm just not the same

I'm tryin' to hide it

Try not to show it

It's crazy

How could it be

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

When you said hello

I looked in your eyes

Suddenly, I felt good inside

Is this really happenin'

Or am I just dreaming

I guess, it's true

I can't believe

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

So this is love

Doesn't matter where I am

Thoughts of you still linger in my mind

No matter what time of day

I've really, really

Fallen for you

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

So this is love

So anw.. past few days were fun!! Shopping with Celine on friday. Met her at 9am,then went to SICC for breakfast. Then headed down to orchard to shop! Till 7pm. Then went to Sentosa coastes for dinner. Finally! My QP pizza!! I have been craving for it for a long time. Saturday, was class BBQ :) Its been nearly a month since i last saw all my friends. The feeling of seeing them again is just so nice :)

Last week was really an accomplishing week :) Ok la.. i didn't do much, but i managed to settle something that has been bugging me for a very long time. Well.. I would not say that i managed to settle it, cos i didn't do anything. Its just that, things just changed for the better. And i am really happy it did. At least there is a beautiful ending now :) At least things are not so awkward now :)

Ok! I cant wait for work to start! Then two holidays in june, one tentative in april, hopefully one in may and finally one in december!! Yay!! Holidays! Here i come!

-Goodnight-

I don't know why i am so easily contented when it comes to you :)

Days without school..

Its only one week since school ended, and it already feels like i have been free for damn long. These few days have been out out out.. Gosh! And now, i am so sunburnt, i think i look redder then a lobster. I think i should stop bumming around, and start finding a job. Ok i shall start soon.

Grad trip is more or less confirmed. Going down to make payment tomorrow. Yay! I seriously can't wait!! Taiwan here we come!! I cant wait for all the FOOD and SHOPPING!!

Exam results will be out on thursday! Was talking to Lucinda just now. How we used to wait anxiously for results since year one. And now we are waiting for our final results. Please let the final results be good :| Friday will be meeting for singing :)

These few days, i have been feeling rather sentimental. Or rather, reflective. Just a few weeks ago, we were all rushing projects like mad. Then the stress was crazy with projects due and exams coming. I was complaining to everyone that i can't wait for holidays to come, I cant wait to be free. I want to do this, i want to do that. Nearly every TV show on TV seems so interesting. But now, I am free. The TV show doesn't seem so interesting already. I am not really enjoying the holiday (ok.. maybe i am) But then without any stress or goals, i don't have the feeling that i accomplished alot as compared to when i had to rush all the projects. I begin to miss rushing to school every morning, i miss meeting my friends in school and feeing so happy that i met them. I miss attending lectures. So i learnt something. Treasure everything and every experience you have now. Because when the time has passed, you will realize you begin to treasure even more. But, you cant turn back the time. So.. yup.. Thats all.. just a random thought.

Also on a random note.. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TAIWAN!! YAY!!

-Goodnight-

I miss you

Fullstop.

Friday marks the end of the three years in polytechnic. It was a very rewarding journey. Not only academically, but in terms of experience and memories. During this three years, we got to meet many people. No matter how short the acquaintance was, it forms some part of the wonderful memory. But other then acquaintances, many bonds of friendship were formed. And that made school just so much better. I cant imagine what will school be like if i didn't have my friends with me. These three years, will bring back many memories in years to come. All the experiences we go through, all the little silly things we do, it just bring a smile to the face :D

So friday was some celebration, then everyone took photos, presentation, more photos, some performance and that's it. Three years of our poly life has a beautiful full-stop placed nicely. But somehow the feeling that school has ended has not sunk in yet. So anw, after the ceremony, met up with charmaine and su. Chatted about our secondary school days. Gosh! I really feel old. Laughed at all the silly things we did. Then i realised, 10 years down the road, we wont remember all the projects, test, exams. But what we will remember in 10 years, is the friendship and experiences we went through in school.

So saturday, went to the NATAS fair, wanted to book grad trip tour. But haven't booked yet. So left then went for YOG performance briefing. It sounds quite fun.. With all the fire, water blah blah.. HAHA!! Then saturday, the feeling finally begin to sink in. Suddenly, it feels so wierd and loss that you dont have to go back to school anymore. i wont have to wake up at 8am every morning, rushing to school, stoning in lectures and stoning in tutorials. I wont have to face project deadlines, test,exams anymore.. The thought was quite happy until i started thinking, so what am i going to do? The feeling of being lost, is really scary. It also sunk in, that i wont be able to meet my friends during lectures, discuss projects and sit in tutorials with my class :(

Sunday, had dinner, then over to our house for singing and drinks. I was nearly totally knocked out :| HAHA! Then today was slacking day. But its beginning to feel bored. I need to find something to do. HAHA! Going out to exercise tomorrow. Hope its really exercise and not end up talking or walking instead of running!

Well.. the next few weeks are going to be TV, sleep, Exercise, meet up with friends, plan trip, tidy my room and finally find a job :)

"No friendship or love can cross our path without leaving some mark on it forever". This sentence is VERY true.. And there are many things which i will never forget in my entire life. Things include you

On a random note, since its time for me to decide what i want in future, as in what i want to continue studying, many people have been asking me what i want to study in future, what i want to do in future. Some people are telling me to go for what i want. But in fact, more people are telling me what to do.. Sometimes, i feel that i am being persuaded to go towards what the people expect of me, rather then what i expect of myself. I know i always tell myself, not to forget my dreams no matter what. But it seems that even though i haven't even decided on anything, everything has been decided for me. Sometimes, i begin to feel that it is "correct" to follow what people expect me to do, and its "wrong" insisting in my own way. I really don't know what to do. If only i can stay in school forever, then i don't have to worry about what i really want or what is expected of me.

-Goodnight-

Last paper!!

Woah! time flies!! Today, was the first paper, Legal. And on thursday would be the second, and also the LAST paper!! Yay!! Today paper was ok la.. But then wasn't feeling too well the past few days. Then yesterday night, started throwing up and had high fever. I was damn scared i cannot make it for today's paper. Felt better this morning. So i dragged myself to school. But i didn't drive though. Paper was ok. Saw doctor just now.. said it was gastric flu. Don't even know how i got it. So tomorrow, will be stay home day to finish mugging my MA.. Then dinner at night. Maybe i shouldn't go. Oh well. shall see how revision goes.

Chinese new year visiting is almost complete, with a few more places left only. Then i shall start counting my ang pao :) Anw, chingay was fun on actual day.. the atmosphere was just awesome. The performance was great too :) Seeing the performance come to life on TV, the feeling is just great. All the hardwork seem to pay off.

Ok.. i shouldn't be here, cos i am supposed to be studying. Supposed to be a short break, ended up all over the internet. Okok!! Discipline!! Back to the notes.. Cos after all they'll be out of my life completely after thursday. So i shall treasure the times spent with them :) Ok.. i am getting random. Byee

-Goodnight-

Last 2 days!

Two more days before school officially ends. Gosh! I hate this feeling. Last few weeks were really busy. Project after project. Well... All i can say is that i am happy with all the test results so far :D We submitted our last official report on tuesday, together with the last official presentation. I felt that it went ok. I think the sense of satisfaction when you see your project conceptualize from just an idea, to a full written report, to presentation, is just so great.

Today, i was on my way home, when i heard this on the radio. I cant really remember the full content of the story, but then the moral of the story is that, there are certain things in life, that you must learn to let go, then only will things will become better. I cant help but agree. I really miss the times when i was a kid, when i wouldnt think of so many things. Everything seemed so much simpler back then. But oh well this is part of growing up.

I have been thinking about so many things these few days. And thinking makes you really tired. Guess its partly cos school is ending, and also because i have been overwhelmed with things to handle and settle. Maybe i should stop thinking and let things fall into place naturally.

Anw, Chinese New Year is less then a week away too!! Can't wait for all the fun and laughter, and after which, 2 main exams and we will be officially graduated. Then i will have my grad trip to taiwan to look forward to. Yay!!

Can this 2 days just last longer and not end so soon?? -Roar-

Goodnight!

-I've been learning/ learnt to let go and stop thinking of so many things. Stop tiring myself out for nothing. Cos afterall, thinking wont make anything change.-

The best part of poly life...

Long day at school today.. Did projects and all till about 5.30pm before going for yogurt with lucinda. Sat there and eat yougrt and just talk till about 7.30pm. Then we realise how fast time flies. We were talking about how Dianna, Tiffany, Me and Lu got to know each other in sem 2.1 That seemed like damn long ago. We got to know each other through projects, and we ended up being friends. laughing and doing all the stupid things together.

Sem 2.2 we all went to different class, but we still kept in contact. We got to know each other better, meeting up for breakfasts and studying for tests. Sem 3.1 was the most memorable. We would meet every thursday for lunch before going for MA lecture. After which, would be yogurt sessions at either paya lebar or kallang leisure park. We went for Stefanie Sun concert and the surprise you all gave me before i left for OSIP.

Now, sem 3.2 is drawing to a close. In a week's time, we will all be going on different paths, some of us might even end up in different countries. I'll really miss YOU guys.. You guys are the ones that made school so much more fun!! But no matter what, i am really happy that we got to know each other. Let's always maintain contact no matter where we will be in future :)

2 more weeks

Two more weeks and we are done with school.. It just seems so scary. But anw, these few weeks is going to be crazy. 2 tests next week, 2 submissions the following week and we're done!! Anw.. These few days were really tiring. Especially on monday, i had to settle the POE stuff, but bro dislocated his leg, so sent him to A&E and waited there for him for nearly 7 hours till about 12am. Was totally knocked out the next day. He might have to go for an operation next week :( Hope his leg some how miraculously recover by itself then it would be good. But anw, get well soon bro! we'll go out when you are better :) Even though you can't play rugby anymore, you can still always play golf :) We'll go play golf together again when you are recovered. AND DONT LAUGH AT ME! I am actually not that bad player ok!

-I have given up-

Three weeks...

3 weeks more before school officially ends. Perhaps when school ends, we will never even meet again. I really hate this feeling. I think what we need now is to sit down and have a good talk. Let's talk everything out. Let's not leave in this manner. I doubt neither of us will take the first move. Perhaps you aren't even bothered. I've decided to leave it to fate. I am still hoping things would change.

I just want to let you know, that i really miss those times...

Napfa!

Hello!!

Ok! Just back from Taekwondo. Super tiring!! was slacking throughout the whole lesson, cos my legs are aching like mad from napfa yesterday. So yesterday, left class early to go for napfa. Did napfa together with melvin, Ben, Shaun, Amrish, Dianna, engchun, michelle and some others la. Then, I was VERY happy all the way till 6pm :| I passed all 5 stations. And not just pass. I did QUITE well in my standard. nearly all A's and B's. Broke my own record. Especially for chin ups. Used not to be able to do even one. This time i did 13!!!! Then everything went smoothly until 2.4km run. I failed :( guess by how much? 45secs!!! Gosh! So i got to retake all if i want to pass. So i might be taking next week. See how things go la. But on the other hand, i am really happy. Broke my own "record" for incline. That's an achievement :)

Ok.. back to today. Couldnt drag myself out of bed this morning. Legs were so painful, i didnt feel like moving. HAHA! But i still went to school for lecture :D so proud of myself. Then, lunch before coming home. Slept from 3plus all the way till 7.15 pm before going for taekwondo. Something is wrong with me today. I cant remember all the patterns, messed them all up. It never happened before. I need to FOCUS!! grading is 2weeks away. I cant fail. Then after lesson, left water bottle and target behind and i happily went home only with my HP. Then sir called bella to say its with him. Shall collect next week. I need to CONCENTRATE and FOCUS!!! not only on taekwondo. But more importantly school work. its a VERY short term. I need to FOCUS!!!!! Shall not let anything distract me anymore.

Got to go study for MA...

-Goodnight-