Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Fullstop.

Friday marks the end of the three years in polytechnic. It was a very rewarding journey. Not only academically, but in terms of experience and memories. During this three years, we got to meet many people. No matter how short the acquaintance was, it forms some part of the wonderful memory. But other then acquaintances, many bonds of friendship were formed. And that made school just so much better. I cant imagine what will school be like if i didn't have my friends with me. These three years, will bring back many memories in years to come. All the experiences we go through, all the little silly things we do, it just bring a smile to the face :D
So friday was some celebration, then everyone took photos, presentation, more photos, some performance and that's it. Three years of our poly life has a beautiful full-stop placed nicely. But somehow the feeling that school has ended has not sunk in yet. So anw, after the ceremony, met up with charmaine and su. Chatted about our secondary school days. Gosh! I really feel old. Laughed at all the silly things we did. Then i realised, 10 years down the road, we wont remember all the projects, test, exams. But what we will remember in 10 years, is the friendship and experiences we went through in school.
So saturday, went to the NATAS fair, wanted to book grad trip tour. But haven't booked yet. So left then went for YOG performance briefing. It sounds quite fun.. With all the fire, water blah blah.. HAHA!! Then saturday, the feeling finally begin to sink in. Suddenly, it feels so wierd and loss that you dont have to go back to school anymore. i wont have to wake up at 8am every morning, rushing to school, stoning in lectures and stoning in tutorials. I wont have to face project deadlines, test,exams anymore.. The thought was quite happy until i started thinking, so what am i going to do? The feeling of being lost, is really scary. It also sunk in, that i wont be able to meet my friends during lectures, discuss projects and sit in tutorials with my class :(
Sunday, had dinner, then over to our house for singing and drinks. I was nearly totally knocked out :| HAHA! Then today was slacking day. But its beginning to feel bored. I need to find something to do. HAHA! Going out to exercise tomorrow. Hope its really exercise and not end up talking or walking instead of running!
Well.. the next few weeks are going to be TV, sleep, Exercise, meet up with friends, plan trip, tidy my room and finally find a job :)

"No friendship or love can cross our path without leaving some mark on it forever". This sentence is VERY true.. And there are many things which i will never forget in my entire life. Things include you


On a random note, since its time for me to decide what i want in future, as in what i want to continue studying, many people have been asking me what i want to study in future, what i want to do in future. Some people are telling me to go for what i want. But in fact, more people are telling me what to do.. Sometimes, i feel that i am being persuaded to go towards what the people expect of me, rather then what i expect of myself. I know i always tell myself, not to forget my dreams no matter what. But it seems that even though i haven't even decided on anything, everything has been decided for me. Sometimes, i begin to feel that it is "correct" to follow what people expect me to do, and its "wrong" insisting in my own way. I really don't know what to do. If only i can stay in school forever, then i don't have to worry about what i really want or what is expected of me.

-Goodnight-

2 comments:

  1. Hellooooo! I realized I haven't visited your blog for so long that I din even realize that you mentioned me in your dec3 post! HAHAHA. :P

    Be it the decision abt what you really wanna do, or the issue abt letting go of the past (you know what I mean), just follow your heart and you will never be wrong. :)

    Oh before I forget, organise a singing session soon before my exams start! :D

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  2. Ok! I'll SMS you soon. The system is all ready. Waiting for you all to sing. HAHA!

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