Phone Bill!!

Oh yeah!! I just suddenly thought of it.. Its crazy to use the Singapore line to call back or SMS to Singapore. My mom just told me a few days ago, that my Singtel bill came.. And she asked me to guess the bill. So i guessed 200+. Then she told me, it was 980++ I got a shock of my life!! And you know what!! Every night when i talk to my family and friends, i've been using skype!! So i dont know how i managed to chalk up so much using my Singapore HP!! I guess its because of all the SMS that i have been SMSing non stop, and the calls from Singapore to my HP that i have been answering and some people from Singapore that i have been talking to sometimes on my HP :)
So i guess its good that my HP broke down.. If not my mom will get another shock when she receives the bill next month.. But it feels so wierd to be without a HP. Like something is missing. I miss the "excitement" when a SMS is received... Then You will be wondering who isit from :) Then, reading the message your friend sent, then replying the SMS!! Its a simple process but gosh!! I miss SMSing!!
Sometimes, every SMS, is a source of motivation.. Its also a source of encouragement. Sometimes, it can bring a smile to your face on a dull day. Although i feel like an idiot smiling to the phone sometimes.. Its a wonder of SMS that i miss.. ARGH!! I am going to get a new HP soon!! Iphone!!! But for now, i need to find a spare battery for the stupid samsung omnia to tide me over till i get my new phone in december!!

-goodnight-

My HP's spoilt!!

Argh!! Guess what!! My HP is officially spoilt -.- Its been acting really cranky for the past few days. And yesterday... I couldnt on it at all!! So, because i can't on my HP, now i can't receive or send any SMS or answer any calls. So, if anyone wants to leave me a message, you can either leave a comment here, or leave an offline message for me on MSN. Gosh!! Stupid phone! Of all the times to break down!! But looking on the bright side, i can get my Iphone soon :)

when family and friends are the pillar of your life...

I was really touched today. This morning, couldn't really sleep. So i woke up at nearly 8am?! Then i called mummy and talked to her for nearly 2 hours!? then i was watching DVD's and all till about 12 plus when i went opposite to buy food and collect mummy's dress. Then after that, came back. I was feeling damn down today. Cos normally on sunday's it will be spent with my whole family, going on outings, having meals and all. So now i am all alone. The feeling is really very very horrible.
So when i came home, i read through all the emails. Then i saw an email from Dianna.. Really touched by all the encouragement and comfort that she gave. Then Lucinda called me on skype, and we talked. Then i went out to the hall to continue some of my show. Then i came back into the room, i saw an email from Charmaine.. It was actually a powerpoint presentation. The words were really meaningful. And in the email she had a short message for me. I was really damn touched when i read it. Then friday night was spent talking for 2 hours plus with debbie and bella. Really felt their care and concern too :) Plus, i was reading through adel and leya's email again. Then lastly, the picture compilation book that tiffy, lu and dee made for me was on my table. I couldnt take it, and i teared. For the first time in many days, i felt really touched and loved. Although i am (i dont know how many) miles away (hey tiff and lu!! remember when we watched high school musical, it seemed so sweet :))HAHAHA!!, my friend are still there for me in singapore. I can feel their love and care all the way from here. I will never ask for anymore in a friend, cos i have it all in you all :)
Lets all work hard together through this 9/10 more weeks.. We'll go back to school, appreciating all the little things that we had taken for granted. Like dianna told me, she would rather be doing projects now. ME TOO!!! AND 1 important point!! Tiff, Lu and dee.. i will go back stronger, more independent and more mature. SO next time dont laugh at me like how you all did when i said in the LT that time, that i was independent and mature.. Got one more i cant remember already. HAHAHAHA!! Cos this time, i really am!! Lets all go for lectures together next sem!! Then i can tell you all about that person again :) Lu is gonna scold me when she see that i type "that person"

上海

Ok... I was thinking since i am in Shanghai, wanted to type this all out in Chinese. But in the end, i gave up after 2 sentence. Its damn hard to type in chinese. Anw, tomorrow marks 2 weeks since i arrives. 1 week since my mom went home. 1 week since i started to learn to be independent. But really, i learnt that i am not independent at all. I know my friends will be laughing now -.- I am hopeless at cooking, other then instant mee.. But it gets really sick after a while. Then i dont really dare to go out and buy. Cos its kinda dark. SO! guess what i have been doing/eating!! Breakfast is a cup of milo, i seldom eat lunch, cos the food is... then for quite a few nights already, i have been drinking milo or cereal with biscuits. So.. to those who said i will come back looking like a pau.. HAHAHA!! You guys are wrong already :D In fact i'm losing weight :D But mummy has been making noise. Cos she say its not really good for my body. But oh well.. thats what happens when you cant cook.
When in shanghai, i really hate weekends. Cos i really have nothing to do. Went shopping with cleo and vanessa today. But then like time pass very slowly. I reached home only at 5pm! Then now i am here drinking milo and typing. How pathetic :( Tomorrow whole day will be in the hotel, until they come over for dinner. Gosh! if they dont come, i will be in the hotel whole day :( I am thinking whats for lunch tomorrow. I REALLY CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY!! Eh!! No.. TUESDAY!!!! Its just 3 days away!!! please please be ok!!! I'm really damn bored here. I miss my family and friends VERY BADLY!!
Anw... Just something random. I was on the bus to work that day, Then my ipod was on shuffle mode. when i heard this really really old song then i suddenly liked it alot!! The lyrics are really really meaningful. Or at least i find it meaningful la. Cos it really reminds me of alot of things/people that through this trip, i find that actually 我比想象中更爱，更在乎他们。 我从来都不知道他们在我生活里面，是多么重要，可是现在我才发现，我是多么地爱他们，多么希望他们在这里，多么希望能跟他们面对面说话，多么像拥抱他们。有些事/人，我以为能在这三个月内，把他给忘了。可是，我发现我真的办不到。就好像歌词所写的，每当夜深人静的事后，我会不知不觉地想起你。

Ok! i give up typing in chinese!! Its damn hard. Wanted to type in chinese, to commemorate that i was here for 2 weeks.. But it seems my chinese standard is still.. :D Anw, I'm gonna read my book now :) Tomorrow will be another boring day. I miss Singapore like MAD!!! I miss the people even more. Everyone.. Ok la.. Since i am so bored, i'll type it out: Mummy, daddy, porky, terry, spiky, ah ma, bella, debbie, charmaine, lucinda, tiffany, dianna, celine,Leya, Adel, Eleri.. And many more la :D :D Oh yeah! talking about leya and adel, Thanks guys for you motivational Email to keep me going. I was watching the video of the dance on FB that day.. I really miss the whole SSA Ang Mo Kio south group!!

-goodnight-

The lyrics of the song that i was talking about

歌曲：我比想象中爱你
歌手：js 专辑：真命天女插曲

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天跟海之间那条界线
慢慢的走远
你曾经是我的地平线

你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

兰花掠过沙滩变静
我又看见我们的脚印
如果遇见幸福的机率
有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

终于发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

So i'm all alone

Hello!! Have not been blogging for a few day. Cos Cleo came and stay over. It was fun la. At least i had company. But she went home this morning. And apparently, she cant come and stay already :( Great. So i am all alone again. Well... I hope i will get used to it. Anw, few people were telling me that they cant leave comments on my blog. I have no idea why too. Sorry people. Anw, last few days were quite fun. Tuesday night, cleo came over. then we went to meet vanessa for dinner at some italian restaurant. Then walked around before heading back. Then on wednesday, we went grocery shopping and headed back to cook. Damn amazing la! She managed to cook pasta, and never mind. All the ingredients, such as carrots, mushrooms, onions were cut with a BUTTER KNIFE!! hahaha!! Cos there was no knife here. I cooked instant mee myself!!! And i didnt get food poisoning. Then ate while we watched ming zhong zu ding wo ai ni on the DVD's that i brought!! Damn nice show la!! HAHAHA!! Then yesterday was KFC and we watched from 7pm till 1am?! HAHAHA!! Well.. today, dinner is still KFC for me :( But then guess what!! Although i am eating junk food here... I lost weight!!! HAHAHAHAHA!! Too stressful la. Those who know about it.. will understand why :( I dont like working! I'd rather go back to school :(
Oh!!! Something damn funny happened on wednesday night! Cos we watched the show till about 1am? Then went to sleep. oh yeah! throughout the whole show, we were discussing which guy is cuter. Ok la.. we got different taste -.- So after the show i was damn tired. So i was lying down, going to fall asleep soon. Then cleo asked me alot of stuff la.. like what to eat for breakfast, what's for dinner and dont know what la.. I know she ask me alot of questions. But then i was too tired to listen and answer. So everything i just said "anything". Then SUDDENLY!! in my half asleep state i heard her say "if you like (insert name) you should go for it" My gosh!! i just jumped up!! Then she told me some stuff la. then i asked her how she know.. then she say its damn obvious. Gosh!!! i dont know where to hide my face la!! Then we ended up talking about it and some other stuff for roughly another 1 hour before she fell asleep. Then after that i couldnt sleep la.. HAHAHA!! Really woke me up. Next day, went to work feeling damn sleepy. Gosh. Ah!!! I really enjoyed myself when cleo stayed here. Cos with her, i dare to go out at night and all. So it makes me really enjoy myself more. Well.. Hai... No choice :( I understand la.
I want time to pass faster.. As in FLY!! I really really want to go back to Singapore. I really Miss everyone. 9 more weeks :) Oh yeah!! tomorrow i am going to shop!! with vanessa and cleo!! Yay!! Shopping!! here i come :)

Emptiness

Came back from work today to an empty room. Hai.. I really hate that feeling. Miss last week when mummy was here. Then she would be there waiting for me. Then after i'm home, we would always go for dinner together. Now i got to warm up my own dinner. Just the look of it and i dont feel like eating. Yay! I am eating damn little when i am here la. I think i can lose weight :) Today whole day, i only ate a banana. Its not that i dont want to eat. I am just not used to eating alone. Everyday, all my meals are filled with company. Lunch will always be in school with friends or family on weekends. Dinner would be with family most of the time. Now i have to eat alone, i just dont feel like eating. HAHA! Maybe its a good time for me to lose weight.
Anw, Thanks guys for all the encouragement message, email that you all keep sending me. Especially, Lu, Bella, Debbie, Dianna, Mummy, Leya and all the rest. I promise you all i will be strong and persevere through this 10 more weeks. I would go home, being a stronger person then i was before. I promise you all i wont be sad cos my mom told me that when she see me being sad, she'll feel sad too. So i wont be sad cos i dont want the people whom love and care for me to feel sad because of me:)Also, i really dont see the reason to be sad. Cos if not for this trip, i'll never learn so much more things. Like who and what really matters most to me in my life. I am thankful that it is only 3 months not 3 years. I really love and miss you guys. I'm counting down to the day when my mom will fly here to accompany me again :)

Missing You

Ok.. I know its random that i am posting 2 posts in a day. But then I am really really damn bored here. So i was thinking through some stuff and i realized something. These 10 weeks is a really good time for me to think through many things, and also learn many other new things. I also realized what is the most important things in my life.
There are really many people i miss when i am here. Many people that i always take for granted such as friends, family and others la :)thinking that they'll always be there. Only now i begin to realize how important they are to me that i wish i will be able to go home NOW and tell them how important they are to me, and that i really really love them. I'll try my best to tell them when i am back :) Ok la!! IF i have to courage to :)
Not only people, many things too. Such as going for dinner with my family, meeting up with friends, fighting with my brother over small stuff like which channel to watch, many other small things. These used to be such small, mundane and insignificant things when i am in Singapore. But now, it means the world to me. I also miss driving to Simei to swim. Then after swimming, i'll feel like i've burned thousand of calories. Then i'll go east point mall to buy food home :) AH!!! I miss it!!
I also miss GOLF!!! Gosh!! I know that its damn random! Cos everyday after work, the bus will actually pass by this golf course. Then i dont know why, that day, suddenly i have the urge to go play. I miss it every time when me, mummy and daddy will drive there. Then either mummy or daddy will always ask whether i need help me to carry the whole club set to the counter, cos i always say that its damn heavy. Then after every golf session, daddy will tempt me with you tiao and tao huay water. AH!!! Then somehow, i cannot resist temptation, and i will always agree to go. Although i keep saying that i am trying to lose weight. HAHAHAHA!! Mummy will get tempted too :)
I really miss every single one of you all in Singapore. I am already counting down to the day when i can board the flight and go back to Singapore. Home is where the heart is. My heart is in Singapore and that is where i belong. (OK! i sound so patriotic :))Every single one of you will be my motivation to finish my internship and go home. I will emerge from this experience a stronger, more experience and more independent person. I will also treasure all those that mean the most to me already :)10 weeks :)

First Steps

First Steps are always the hardest. But i'll always remember, pain is temporary, but victory is forever. Ok.. One week into Shanghai OSIP already. 10 more weeks to go. I really hope time flies these 10 weeks. Anw, Mummy went back to Singapore already. So i am all alone here. First time i am all alone in a foreign country. So the feeling is not very good :( To make things worst, i am missing every single person in Singapore. My family, friends, dog, car everything that i can think of. I think i am still feeling ok now, cos its still in the day. In Singapore, i am also always alone in the day. But when night comes, thats when i will start to feel worst. Every evening, i'll miss having dinner together as a family, going out shopping, watching movies, eating supper and many more.
But i don't regret coming for this trip. From this trip, i really really learn alot of things. Like who are the people who really care for me and really love me, especially my mummy :) I also learnt many things like i will NEVER ask to go overseas to study or work again. I remembered always telling mummy that i would want to either go overseas to work or to study. But after this trip i can say one thing for sure, i will never want to go already. I would rather sacrifice not being able to go university, or promotion by working overseas rather then not being able to spend time with my family and friends. Some people might say that i am stupid, but then i find that for me, family and friends are things that make life so much happier and meaningful. I will never want to stay overseas myself again.
I am really thankful for this 10 weeks that help me to realize so many things. :) No matter what, i will pull through these 10 weeks. Its a kind of challenge that i decided to take up, and i must make sure i finish it through. Its going to be a LONG, LONELY and TIRING 10 weeks. But i know i can make it though. Cos i have the love, care and encouragement from family and friends :)

missing everyone :)

Missing everyone!

Day three here. Getting quite used to it. Something damn funny happened today. Went out shopping with mummy this morning. So when we left the hotel room that time, i think i slammed the door too hard. So the latch from inside kind of closed back. So when we came back from shopping, i tried opening the door. But then, i couldn't. Cos the latch was closed!! So we were damn damn freaked out!!! We thought someone went into out room and locked the door from inside!!! So we called the receptionist downstairs. Then they came up and took nearly 20 mins to break open the latch. Then damn funny!! Cos i bought a golf club driver today. So i took the club and walk in with my mom. Then i was thinking, if there was someone inside, i am going to whack the person up!! Then My mom went to the room, kitchen, toilet to check if there was a person inside. But then thank goodness there was no one inside. Lol!! Then the receptionist who broke the latch for us, told us that it was becuase i slammed the door too hard. Thats why the latch fell back. Damn scary la!! I was thinking, if there was really someone inside, i am going to shift away IMMEDIATELY!!!
The shopping here is great :) But then the food... -.- no comments. I hope i can lose weight by the time i go home :) Its only day three... And i am missing everyone already!! Every single one. I miss going to school already :( school is so much better then being here. I don't like being in an new and unknown environment. Esp after what happened today.. i know its a false alarm la! But then its still kinda scary :( Well... I need to enjoy what i am doing and learn as much as i can from this trip :) Make the best out of this opportunity :) Starting work tomorrow. Wish me luck :)


-Goodnight-

每当夜深人静的时候，我又不知不觉地想起你.

First Post From Shanghai

Hello Everyone!!
First Post from shanghai :) Anw, today morning reached the airport at about 7.30am? went for breakfast with parents and met Debbie and bella first before checking in. Then met Charmaine and Tiffany, Lucinda and Dianna. Chat around a while, took pictures then Bella and Charmaine all left first cos of school stuff. Then was supposed to go in at about 9.30am. But then Shaun called to say he is on the way. So waited outside till about 9.45am. Then Shaun came, took some photos then i went in already. Felt quite bad. HAHA!! Really wanted to spend more time with everyone. But a really big thanks to everyone for all your effort. Thanks Lucinda, Tiffany and Dianna for doing up the photo collection sketch book with all the quotes and all.I really didnt know we had so many photos!! But i know you all put in a great effort filling up that big bookwith photos and quotes and messages. Thanks to Bella, Leya, Adel,Eleri for the all the cards each of you gave. And thanks to many others who sms'ed me. Every SMS and message really means alot to me :) :) I'll miss you guys. Ok la.. I'm missing all of you all already :)
On board the plane, i was hearing my ipod then reading through all the cards and messages and i was really touched. Then when i came to the photo book, looking through every single picture really bring back alot of memories. Somehow, tears just flowed a little. I cant imagine i will be here 3 months without you guys. But then i am really happy to have such wonderful friends like all of you all. All the photos, messages and cards will be my source of motivation whenever i feel down or lonely for this 3 months :)
Touched down and reached hotel at about 5+pm. Checked in and all. The room is really really comfy and nice. Its just that tehe walkway from the lift to my room is a little ulu and deserted. But Nvm.. I'll overcome my fear during the week when my parents are with me. After which i will RUN everyday from the lift to the room. I wont go out after work so that i can be home before dark. On weekends i will be home by 5+pm. HAHAHA!! so i will blog VERY often. Lol...
11 weeks will past real soon. I want and will be back in singapore very soon again. Till then, i'll miss you guys :) I'll learn the most that i can from this experience :) But first i got to find a way to run from the lift to my room ASAP. HAHAHA!!

-goodnight-

Smile :)

Photos as promised :) Saturday, Sunday, Monday and today are really fun-filled days. I enjoyed myself way beyond any description. As in the previous post, saturday and sunday were spent at gatherings with poly friends, sec school friends, family, relatives and all. Monday was spent with mummy shopping at AMK hub for some internship stuff. I dont know why the sudden decision to go AMK hub. But anw, it was fun :) Then headed to some other place to make specs and all before heading home.

Today, was supposed to go singing with tiff, lu, and all.. But then, in the end, we ended up at parkway eating and shopping around till about 5. Then headed out for dinner with family instead :) Good food/wine/company really made my day. Plus the fact that the past few days were spent with all the people whom i treasure most, really made this birthday a really enjoyable one for me. Another thing, thanks to everyone who wished me by sms or on facebook: Su, Poh hoon, Barbara, Adel, xing yi, Bella, Debbie, Lu, Tiff, Dianna, Charmaine, Ornie, Kimberly, Rachel, Micky, Michelle, Celine, Porky, Shaun, and i cant remember who already. Sorry if i left you out. HAHA!! But thanks anw :) More pictures on sunday and today next time. Cos blogger just deleted all the photos that i just uploaded -.-

Photos!!

Saturday

Sunday