I'm going to be a Panda soon :(

Ok.. Just a short update before if zoom off again. HAHA! I have been sleeping everyday EARLIEST 3am! I'm gonna suffer from "jet lag" when i start adjusting back again. The reason why i am sleeping so late, is cos i am super addicted to the show 下一站，幸福!! Its VERY VERY nice!! The story line is damn good! And in the show, Ren Guang Xi is cute :) And the way he fight in court is damn cool! If only i watched the show earlier i would study doubly hard for my legal -.- ok.. no link.

Yup.. apart from this, these few days, it kept raining in the afternoon. And that is always when i want to go out!! Then i will have to either go out in the rain, or cancel the appointment cos i don't want to go out in the rain. Other then that, nothing much interesting going on. Yawn.. I miss school :( But i'll be starting work real soon. Then few holiday trips to look forward to! Yay!

Anw, last few days i was watching the show then i realise something, forgetting somebody or something, isn't always as easy as it seems. And that some people, no matter how hard you try, you can never forget them. Oh well... just a random thought. Maybe you'll feel the same after watching the show :D :D

I cant wait for thursday's YOG training!! YOG training is really something that i look forward to every week! I think the fire props are cool! Now in the process of learning it and its fun!! Just that i cant wait for the day, that we can collect our actual props and light fire to it! The sense of satisfaction will be the best :) Ok.. its 1.40am and I'm gonna sleep early tonight before i become a panda :)

-Goodnight-

I've fallen for you

Dont laugh at my post title!! Its just that I've been hearing this song these few days and i find that its very nice and its description is really nice. HAHA!

I've fallen for you

What is this I'm feelin'

I just can't explain

When you're near

I'm just not the same

I'm tryin' to hide it

Try not to show it

It's crazy

How could it be

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

When you said hello

I looked in your eyes

Suddenly, I felt good inside

Is this really happenin'

Or am I just dreaming

I guess, it's true

I can't believe

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

So this is love

Doesn't matter where I am

Thoughts of you still linger in my mind

No matter what time of day

I've really, really

Fallen for you

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

I've fallen for you

Finally, my heart gave in

And I'm fallen in love

I finally know how it feels

So this is love

So anw.. past few days were fun!! Shopping with Celine on friday. Met her at 9am,then went to SICC for breakfast. Then headed down to orchard to shop! Till 7pm. Then went to Sentosa coastes for dinner. Finally! My QP pizza!! I have been craving for it for a long time. Saturday, was class BBQ :) Its been nearly a month since i last saw all my friends. The feeling of seeing them again is just so nice :)

Last week was really an accomplishing week :) Ok la.. i didn't do much, but i managed to settle something that has been bugging me for a very long time. Well.. I would not say that i managed to settle it, cos i didn't do anything. Its just that, things just changed for the better. And i am really happy it did. At least there is a beautiful ending now :) At least things are not so awkward now :)

Ok! I cant wait for work to start! Then two holidays in june, one tentative in april, hopefully one in may and finally one in december!! Yay!! Holidays! Here i come!

-Goodnight-

I don't know why i am so easily contented when it comes to you :)

Days without school..

Its only one week since school ended, and it already feels like i have been free for damn long. These few days have been out out out.. Gosh! And now, i am so sunburnt, i think i look redder then a lobster. I think i should stop bumming around, and start finding a job. Ok i shall start soon.

Grad trip is more or less confirmed. Going down to make payment tomorrow. Yay! I seriously can't wait!! Taiwan here we come!! I cant wait for all the FOOD and SHOPPING!!

Exam results will be out on thursday! Was talking to Lucinda just now. How we used to wait anxiously for results since year one. And now we are waiting for our final results. Please let the final results be good :| Friday will be meeting for singing :)

These few days, i have been feeling rather sentimental. Or rather, reflective. Just a few weeks ago, we were all rushing projects like mad. Then the stress was crazy with projects due and exams coming. I was complaining to everyone that i can't wait for holidays to come, I cant wait to be free. I want to do this, i want to do that. Nearly every TV show on TV seems so interesting. But now, I am free. The TV show doesn't seem so interesting already. I am not really enjoying the holiday (ok.. maybe i am) But then without any stress or goals, i don't have the feeling that i accomplished alot as compared to when i had to rush all the projects. I begin to miss rushing to school every morning, i miss meeting my friends in school and feeing so happy that i met them. I miss attending lectures. So i learnt something. Treasure everything and every experience you have now. Because when the time has passed, you will realize you begin to treasure even more. But, you cant turn back the time. So.. yup.. Thats all.. just a random thought.

Also on a random note.. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TAIWAN!! YAY!!

-Goodnight-

I miss you

Fullstop.

Friday marks the end of the three years in polytechnic. It was a very rewarding journey. Not only academically, but in terms of experience and memories. During this three years, we got to meet many people. No matter how short the acquaintance was, it forms some part of the wonderful memory. But other then acquaintances, many bonds of friendship were formed. And that made school just so much better. I cant imagine what will school be like if i didn't have my friends with me. These three years, will bring back many memories in years to come. All the experiences we go through, all the little silly things we do, it just bring a smile to the face :D

So friday was some celebration, then everyone took photos, presentation, more photos, some performance and that's it. Three years of our poly life has a beautiful full-stop placed nicely. But somehow the feeling that school has ended has not sunk in yet. So anw, after the ceremony, met up with charmaine and su. Chatted about our secondary school days. Gosh! I really feel old. Laughed at all the silly things we did. Then i realised, 10 years down the road, we wont remember all the projects, test, exams. But what we will remember in 10 years, is the friendship and experiences we went through in school.

So saturday, went to the NATAS fair, wanted to book grad trip tour. But haven't booked yet. So left then went for YOG performance briefing. It sounds quite fun.. With all the fire, water blah blah.. HAHA!! Then saturday, the feeling finally begin to sink in. Suddenly, it feels so wierd and loss that you dont have to go back to school anymore. i wont have to wake up at 8am every morning, rushing to school, stoning in lectures and stoning in tutorials. I wont have to face project deadlines, test,exams anymore.. The thought was quite happy until i started thinking, so what am i going to do? The feeling of being lost, is really scary. It also sunk in, that i wont be able to meet my friends during lectures, discuss projects and sit in tutorials with my class :(

Sunday, had dinner, then over to our house for singing and drinks. I was nearly totally knocked out :| HAHA! Then today was slacking day. But its beginning to feel bored. I need to find something to do. HAHA! Going out to exercise tomorrow. Hope its really exercise and not end up talking or walking instead of running!

Well.. the next few weeks are going to be TV, sleep, Exercise, meet up with friends, plan trip, tidy my room and finally find a job :)

"No friendship or love can cross our path without leaving some mark on it forever". This sentence is VERY true.. And there are many things which i will never forget in my entire life. Things include you

On a random note, since its time for me to decide what i want in future, as in what i want to continue studying, many people have been asking me what i want to study in future, what i want to do in future. Some people are telling me to go for what i want. But in fact, more people are telling me what to do.. Sometimes, i feel that i am being persuaded to go towards what the people expect of me, rather then what i expect of myself. I know i always tell myself, not to forget my dreams no matter what. But it seems that even though i haven't even decided on anything, everything has been decided for me. Sometimes, i begin to feel that it is "correct" to follow what people expect me to do, and its "wrong" insisting in my own way. I really don't know what to do. If only i can stay in school forever, then i don't have to worry about what i really want or what is expected of me.

-Goodnight-

Last paper!!

Woah! time flies!! Today, was the first paper, Legal. And on thursday would be the second, and also the LAST paper!! Yay!! Today paper was ok la.. But then wasn't feeling too well the past few days. Then yesterday night, started throwing up and had high fever. I was damn scared i cannot make it for today's paper. Felt better this morning. So i dragged myself to school. But i didn't drive though. Paper was ok. Saw doctor just now.. said it was gastric flu. Don't even know how i got it. So tomorrow, will be stay home day to finish mugging my MA.. Then dinner at night. Maybe i shouldn't go. Oh well. shall see how revision goes.

Chinese new year visiting is almost complete, with a few more places left only. Then i shall start counting my ang pao :) Anw, chingay was fun on actual day.. the atmosphere was just awesome. The performance was great too :) Seeing the performance come to life on TV, the feeling is just great. All the hardwork seem to pay off.

Ok.. i shouldn't be here, cos i am supposed to be studying. Supposed to be a short break, ended up all over the internet. Okok!! Discipline!! Back to the notes.. Cos after all they'll be out of my life completely after thursday. So i shall treasure the times spent with them :) Ok.. i am getting random. Byee

-Goodnight-

Last 2 days!

Two more days before school officially ends. Gosh! I hate this feeling. Last few weeks were really busy. Project after project. Well... All i can say is that i am happy with all the test results so far :D We submitted our last official report on tuesday, together with the last official presentation. I felt that it went ok. I think the sense of satisfaction when you see your project conceptualize from just an idea, to a full written report, to presentation, is just so great.

Today, i was on my way home, when i heard this on the radio. I cant really remember the full content of the story, but then the moral of the story is that, there are certain things in life, that you must learn to let go, then only will things will become better. I cant help but agree. I really miss the times when i was a kid, when i wouldnt think of so many things. Everything seemed so much simpler back then. But oh well this is part of growing up.

I have been thinking about so many things these few days. And thinking makes you really tired. Guess its partly cos school is ending, and also because i have been overwhelmed with things to handle and settle. Maybe i should stop thinking and let things fall into place naturally.

Anw, Chinese New Year is less then a week away too!! Can't wait for all the fun and laughter, and after which, 2 main exams and we will be officially graduated. Then i will have my grad trip to taiwan to look forward to. Yay!!

Can this 2 days just last longer and not end so soon?? -Roar-

Goodnight!

-I've been learning/ learnt to let go and stop thinking of so many things. Stop tiring myself out for nothing. Cos afterall, thinking wont make anything change.-

The best part of poly life...

Long day at school today.. Did projects and all till about 5.30pm before going for yogurt with lucinda. Sat there and eat yougrt and just talk till about 7.30pm. Then we realise how fast time flies. We were talking about how Dianna, Tiffany, Me and Lu got to know each other in sem 2.1 That seemed like damn long ago. We got to know each other through projects, and we ended up being friends. laughing and doing all the stupid things together.

Sem 2.2 we all went to different class, but we still kept in contact. We got to know each other better, meeting up for breakfasts and studying for tests. Sem 3.1 was the most memorable. We would meet every thursday for lunch before going for MA lecture. After which, would be yogurt sessions at either paya lebar or kallang leisure park. We went for Stefanie Sun concert and the surprise you all gave me before i left for OSIP.

Now, sem 3.2 is drawing to a close. In a week's time, we will all be going on different paths, some of us might even end up in different countries. I'll really miss YOU guys.. You guys are the ones that made school so much more fun!! But no matter what, i am really happy that we got to know each other. Let's always maintain contact no matter where we will be in future :)

2 more weeks

Two more weeks and we are done with school.. It just seems so scary. But anw, these few weeks is going to be crazy. 2 tests next week, 2 submissions the following week and we're done!! Anw.. These few days were really tiring. Especially on monday, i had to settle the POE stuff, but bro dislocated his leg, so sent him to A&E and waited there for him for nearly 7 hours till about 12am. Was totally knocked out the next day. He might have to go for an operation next week :( Hope his leg some how miraculously recover by itself then it would be good. But anw, get well soon bro! we'll go out when you are better :) Even though you can't play rugby anymore, you can still always play golf :) We'll go play golf together again when you are recovered. AND DONT LAUGH AT ME! I am actually not that bad player ok!

-I have given up-

Three weeks...

3 weeks more before school officially ends. Perhaps when school ends, we will never even meet again. I really hate this feeling. I think what we need now is to sit down and have a good talk. Let's talk everything out. Let's not leave in this manner. I doubt neither of us will take the first move. Perhaps you aren't even bothered. I've decided to leave it to fate. I am still hoping things would change.

I just want to let you know, that i really miss those times...

Napfa!

Hello!!

Ok! Just back from Taekwondo. Super tiring!! was slacking throughout the whole lesson, cos my legs are aching like mad from napfa yesterday. So yesterday, left class early to go for napfa. Did napfa together with melvin, Ben, Shaun, Amrish, Dianna, engchun, michelle and some others la. Then, I was VERY happy all the way till 6pm :| I passed all 5 stations. And not just pass. I did QUITE well in my standard. nearly all A's and B's. Broke my own record. Especially for chin ups. Used not to be able to do even one. This time i did 13!!!! Then everything went smoothly until 2.4km run. I failed :( guess by how much? 45secs!!! Gosh! So i got to retake all if i want to pass. So i might be taking next week. See how things go la. But on the other hand, i am really happy. Broke my own "record" for incline. That's an achievement :)

Ok.. back to today. Couldnt drag myself out of bed this morning. Legs were so painful, i didnt feel like moving. HAHA! But i still went to school for lecture :D so proud of myself. Then, lunch before coming home. Slept from 3plus all the way till 7.15 pm before going for taekwondo. Something is wrong with me today. I cant remember all the patterns, messed them all up. It never happened before. I need to FOCUS!! grading is 2weeks away. I cant fail. Then after lesson, left water bottle and target behind and i happily went home only with my HP. Then sir called bella to say its with him. Shall collect next week. I need to CONCENTRATE and FOCUS!!! not only on taekwondo. But more importantly school work. its a VERY short term. I need to FOCUS!!!!! Shall not let anything distract me anymore.

Got to go study for MA...

-Goodnight-