Its nearly 2.15am, just finished downloading all the pass year papers and stuff. Going to print it tomorrow before i officially start my revision. I have ALOT to revise. This is the last chance for me to pull up my GPA.Plus somemore i am going for OSIP, i cant afford to even fail one paper or get a supp paper.
I'm feeling super tired now. But i cant get to sleep. Too many thoughts are simply running through my head now. It all started just now, during taekwondo. We collected our new brown belt today. next belt that we would collect would be our BLACK belt :) Then sir told me that the next grading would be in october. Which means i wouldnt be able to take the next grading. I would be going for another round in January. Most probably bella would be waiting for me then we would go for the grading together. But then, suddenly, many thoughts came to my mind.
I am really looking forward for the OSIP. Its something that i have always wanted. Overseas experience, i can learn to be independent, the time i am away from home is not too long either. But then, on the other hand, there are any things that are making me miss home even before i leave. I started thinking, if i was not going for OSIP, i would be able to go for taekwondo grading, i would be able to spend time with my family and friends and my doggy, i would be very comfortable, everyday in my own house, own room, going to work in the morning, coming back at night. I will be very secure. But when i am overseas, i am faced with alot of unknowns and uncertainties. People are telling me alot of things, to be careful and stuff. This is making me more afraid of the unknown. I know i will adapt to the living environment soon. But then, i would still miss my family, friends, doggy and lastly the comfort of my room.
I cant remember who, but someone told me last time when i was still deciding whether to go for OSIP. The person told me that if you never step out of your comfort zone, you will never grow. I think it makes sense to me now. Through this experience, i finally figured out some really important stuff. i figured out who are the ones who really care for me. I also found out who are the ones that although i take for granted sometimes, actually mean the most to me. I beleive that i will grow more as an individual throughout the whole internship programme.
I will miss every single one. My family, my friends, Terry (my dog). For now, i think i should just stop thinking of it and focus on my exams now.
-Goodnight-
will i still think of you after 3 months?
Finally, i can leave you a comment. Anyway, hope all the problems are settled soon. Don't forget to tell me when you are going ok?
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